Moment Of Truth

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Last Time......

(Jay) Truth Moment
(Beyonce) *sighs* Sure!
(Jay)  If you where pregnant I wouldn't of loved that baby any less then I love Hazel and Blue. I wouldn't of wanted you to get an abortion. I just would of had deal, like you did for me
(Beyonce) *tearing up* Thats nice to know *walking up the stairs*
(Jay) Bey wait?
(Beyonce) What Shawn?! I said it was ok now drop it please!
(Jay) Ok Bey I just don't want you to be mad at me anymore
(Beyonce) I'm not mad at you. I'm just mad at myself
(Jay) For what?
(Beyonce) A lot of things but if you don't mine I would like to take a bath now
(Jay) *Sighs* Ok. I'll cook you something to eat
(Beyonce) I'm not hungry *walking away*
(Jay) Ok then


Now.......


(Beyonce) 


I walked upstairs because I absolutely felt like crap.I wasn't hungry and I couldn't even hardly look at Jay because of how I felt. I actually felt like I committed a crime but we all know keeping the baby wasn't such a good idea. I felt dirty and a little insecure and at this very moment for the first time ever I hated myself. So I went into the bathroom and locked the door and pulled the ultrasound picture out my purse. It was a only a picture of a little dot but it was my dot. I'm not sure if it was a girl or a boy or not but I couldn't help but feel bad about what I did. I turn the the water in the tub on so I can wash some of this hate off of me. As I watched the tub fill I just started thinking about the life I could of gave he or she. I started to think about how much Hazel and Blue what of loved their new brother or sister and then the tears started falling. I really felt like shit and I couldn't stand to look at the picture any more so I put it back in my purse and got into the tub. I stayed in the  bathroom and cried for at least a hour while I was in the tub and when I came out the bathroom Jay was the first face I saw.


(Jay) Beyonce have you been crying
(Beyonce) No why would you ask that
(Jay) Because your eyes are bloodshot red and they are puffy
(Beyonce) Thats because I got soap in my eyes
(Jay) Beyonce I'm not stupid why where you crying
(Beyonce) I told you I wasn't crying
(Jay) Beyonce what are you hiding from me? What really happen today
(Beyonce) I went to the store and I came back home
(Jay) Yea and every since you came back home you've been snapping at me for no reason. Actually since the results of the pregnancy test. Beyonce are you pregnant did you lie to me
(Beyonce)No I'm not pregnant, look I'm sorry ok I just have a lot on my mind
(Jay) Do you wanna tell me whats going on
(Beyonce) Usher came by here after you left
(Jay) Beyonce I told you I didn't want him here anymore
(Beyonce) I didn't invite him he just came
(Jay) But you let him in
(Beyonce) No I didn't he came right after you left. I'm surprised you didn't see him
(Jay) What did he want
(Beyonce) He wanted to talk but I told him no and I asked him to leave. He wouldn't listen and she started talking trying to get me to change my mind. I hate when people try to get me to change my mind so I got angry and I've been mad every since. So if you think I'm taking this out on you I'm sorry. Now could we please drop it
(Jay) Sure, get dressed
(Beyonce) For what?
(Jay) Because Kiara is here now so I wanna take to out to dinner. Just you and I
(Beyonce) I'm not hungry
(Jay) Ok well you can watch me eat. Get dressed 
(Beyonce) OK fine I'll be ready in a few


(Bey)


I gave in easily because I just totally lied to him. I hate having to lie to him but I couldn't let him know what I just did. So I got dressed welcomed Kiara back and I spoke to her son Javier. He was 13 years years old and he was gona stay with us for a week. I found out Kiara had left because Javier had became really sick so Kiara had asked if it was ok for him to stay with us until his father come back from Mexico in one week. I really needed the help with the girls so I told her it was ok. After I introduce Kiara to Blue, Jay and I had left. 


*Dinner*


(Jay) Are you sure you don't want anything to eat
(Beyonce) Yes. I just want some whine


After Jay got his food and I got my whine Jay started talking to me and I guest I kind of spaced out a little


(Jay) Beyonce! ............ Beyonce!!
(Beyonce) Huh
(Jay) Are you listening 
(Beyonce) Yea baby I'm sorry
(Jay) Do you wana dance
(Beyonce) Sure


Jay and I walked the the dance floor and I put my head on his shoulder and my arms around his neck and we starting dancing. While we were dancing a few tears left my eyes and Jay didn't seem to notice at lease I think he didn't. After the dance I decided have a few more drinks actually I had enough to make me forget about what had happened earlier. The more I drank the better time the both of us had. By the time we got home it was 3am and I was super drunk and super horny. I ask Jay to carry me up the stairs and he did it. He put me in the bed and I started to undress myself. I looked at Jay was shocked by my behavior because a few hours ago I was pissed off at him. Well he didn't stay shocked for long because before I knew it he was on top of me kissing and licking and biting. Everything was going great at lease until he tried to enter me. When he did that the memories of the abortion had came back into mind because of the pain I was feeling. Usually I can take him but I just had an abortion so the sex hurt like hell and I don't mean a good pain. I screamed out STOP but only loud enough for the two of us to hear. I guess it kind of startled him so he retreated quickly.


(Jay) Bey whats wrong
(Beyonce) *almost in tears* I'm sorry you went in to fast and it really hurt me
(Jay) I'm sorry Bey but you usually can handle me. 
(Beyonce) I know but its been a while
(Jay) Look I'll go slower 
(Beyonce) Actually can we just do this another night
(Jay) Sure


(Jay's POV)


I put her in my arms and watched as she fell asleep. I tried going to sleep but something just didn't feel right. Beyonce never stopped me because of the pain she usually can take it. I knew she was in pain because of the way she screamed out STOP! So I knew she wasn't lying about the pain it really hurt her. Something is going on with her and Imma find out what is it is. She was crying during our dance and I know she was crying in the bathroom I just don't know what for. I puzzled my brain for about an hour until I feel asleep. The next morning when  woke up something hit me. I knew Beyonce had gotten an abortion at lease I think she did at made it my business to bring it up at breakfast.




Bey Jay, Hazel, and Blue was at the kitchen table eating and it was a little awkward. Bey was feeding Blue and Jay was watching Bey like a hawk.


(Beyonce) Shawn why are you looking at me like that
(Jay) Bey did you have an abortion yesterday


(Beyonce POV)


When Jay asked me that I almost choked on my food. Like how did he find out I know Solange didn't tell him,


(Beyonce) What?
(Jay) I think you heard me
(Beyonce) No I didn't have an abortion. You have to be pregnant for that and I told you I wasn't pregnant
(Jay) I hope you're not lying to me
(Beyonce) I'm not 
(Jay) OK.


(Jay POV) 


I had to let it go because I had no proof. All I was doing was assuming things and I don't know how I let that thought cross my mind Bey would never.






*1 month later*


(Bey's POV)


Its been a month since the abortion and every thing is back to normal. I still get sad from time to time but not often. I guess I came to the conclusion that the abortion was the right thing to do. I still love he/she and I still carry the picture in my purse as a reminder but I a, happy.


(Beyonce) Bye baby *kisses Jay*
(Jay) Where are you about to go 
(Beyonce) To go see Solo
(Jay) When are you coming back
(Beyonce) Does it matter
(Jay) No but I would like to know
(Beyonce) In about 30 minutes
(Jay) Alright


*Solo's House*


(Solange) So Bey how are you doing
(Beyonce) I'm ok finally
(Solange) Well that's good
(Beyonce) I know. But guess what
(Solange) What?
(Beyonce) My tour starts in two weeks. Thats why I'm here, I wanted to tell you in person
(Solange) How long are you gona be gone
(Beyonce) 7 months
(Solange) Noooo Bey imma miss you so much
(Beyonce) Imma miss you too but you can always come see me and we can skype
(Solange) I know but uggg Bey its not the same
(Beyonce) I know but I'll be back soon
(Solange) I know but did you tell Jay 
(Beyonce) Not yet but i'll tell him when I get home
(Solange) What about the girls
(Beyonce) I was kind of hoping Jay would come so the girls can come too
(Solange) Beyonce I'm not letting you take my nieces 
(Beyonce) Solo puhlease. But I gotta go I told Jay I would be home in 30 minutes
(Solange) Ok. I'll try to stop by your house tomorrow with Ty, Chelle, and Kelly
(Beyonce) Ok


Bey went home to tell Jay the news


(Beyonce) Where are the girls
(Jay) Kiara took them out for ice-cream
(Beyonce) O good I need to talk to you
(Jay) About what
(Beyonce) *sitting on Jay's lap* I'm going on tour in two weeks
(Jay) But we just got back together a month ago. Can you postpone it
(Beyonce) No. I'm sorry
(Jay) Fine!! I guess we have to make the best of the time we have left together then. 
(Beyonce) Right! *kisses Jay* I'll meet you upstairs *giving Jay a seductive look* 
(Jay) Alright!


Beyonce starting heading upstairs and Jay slowly followed until Bey's phone started to ring


(Jay) Dang Bey...
(Beyonce) Come on just ignore it
(Jay) But it might be Kiara with the girls. I'll get it
(Beyonce) Its in my purse
(Jay) Alright *grabbing Bey's purse
(Beyonce) WAIT!! Baby stop I'll get it *walking towards Jay* 
(Jay) Thats ok baby I go it *opening Bey's purse*
(Beyonce) Baby I-
(Jay) What is this
(Beyonce) Its nothing *taking the picture away from Jay*
(Jay) That don't look like nothing to me Beyonce
(Beyonce) Fine its an ultrasound picture
(Jay) Of who's baby
(Beyonce) Of my baby
(Jay) Are you pregnant
(Beyonce) No. I got an abortion
(Jay) Beyonce I asked you did you get an abortion and you told me no
(Beyonce) *walking towards* I'm sorry
(Jay) Why did you do this? 
(Beyonce) *crying* Because you wanted me too
(Jay) Beyonce I told you I-
(Beyonce) You told me you wanted to keep it after I already had the abortion 
(Jay) Why didn't you tell me? Why did you lie
(Beyonce) Because Shawn you didn't want it and it wasn't your baby or your problem. It was my problem and I fixed it,
(Jay) Bey-
(Beyonce) I don't want to talk about this I'm finally able to deal with myself. So can we please just drop it
(Jay) Bey I-
(Beyonce) PLEASE!!
(Jay) Ok
(Beyonce) Thank you. Are you mad at me
(Jay) Yes I'm pissed
(Beyonce) I-
(Jay) I'm pissed because you lied to me. The abortion was your choice even though I don't approve it was still your choice and it was over a month ago. Beyonce I hate when you lie to me
(Beyonce) And I hate lying to you
(Jay) Come here.. Listen I'm your husband and I don't ever want you to feel like you can't come talk to me. *Hugging Bey*
(Beyonce) I'm sorry
(Jay) I forgive you
(Beyonce) Why are you being so nice to me
(Jay) Because you leave in two weeks and I rather not waste my time arguing over something that happened a month ago
(Beyonce) I love you 
(Jay) I love you too *kissing Bey*
(Beyonce) So who was that calling me
(Jay) It was your mom
(Beyonce) Ok I need to call her back


*Phone Conversation*


(Tina) Hello *sniffs*
(Beyonce) Mom are you crying
(Tina) Bey-
(Beyonce) Mom what is it
(Tina) You're father was here and he started feeling sick and he fainted and I called 911 and they took him to the hospital.
(Beyonce) Is he ok
(Tina) I don't know, They wont let me see him because I'm not his wife or child
(Beyonce) Ok mom I'm on my way


To Be Continued..... 


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